The Ordeal

by Mixed Messages

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released 01 May 2013
Recorded and Mixed by MM. Vox & Programming: Wesley Rogers, Guitars & 2nd Vox: Nick Frank, More Guitars: Dim Rott, Bass: Sharon Collier, Keys: Nick McCoy, Additional Percussion: Nick Plantz. Mastering by Jamie King. Additional Programming on Track 10 (Abomination) by Aleph Dobbs. Track 6 (Suffer) written and originally performed by Paul Barker and John Elliot of Dessau. Used and recorded with explicit written permission from Dessau. Special Thanks to Becky Plant, Miles Jones, Christine Collier, Christopher Rogers, Daniel Vogt, Erika Martinez, Teresa Collier, Dawn Wood, Chad Jessup, Julia Egli, Bob Paqette, Jeremy Quintos, Wendi Benson, Amy Greenwood, Lola Vast, Mary McDowell, Rachel Dollarhide, Christina Sears, Zachary Klinefelter, Andres Torres, Tammy Wheat, Tom Steffens, Bob McHenry, Alexander and Seage Harris, Luke Green, Sara Hawk, Shane Siegfried, Jesse Lindsay, Peter Thadeus, Dessau, Alice Roberts, and all the broken people of this Emerald City.

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Mixed Messages Seattle, Washington

An Industrial Metal band from Seattle, that's been a band since January 2012. Fronted by Wesley Rogers, a veteran of the Seattle music scene having played for notable local bands like Bell's Theorum and Prehumanity. He is joined by two other Bell's Theorum alumni, Niklos Frank and Dim. Alpha, as well as Sharon Collier on Bass, N.J. McCoy on keys and synths, and Nick Plantz on drums/bashrack. ... more

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Track Name: Chivalry
One cut is all you need
Watch it bend and tear
to drain away this disease
Control is everything
You make it bend and tear
until you can feel anything

You think that Chivalry is dead
but you will see
that this pain is all you'll ever feel
so put your hand out into the fire

You were the one
who summoned all of your demons
each with their own agendas
Now you must sleep
with all of them

You made your bed
Now you must sleep in it
Just concentrate
on the colors
as you fade away
Track Name: Into the Middle of Things
Break away
from everything that holds you back
Cause all your plans
never turn out the way you want
So come with me
see what it's like when you are free
Nothing but you
and your memories

This is the easiest decision
that I've ever made
Take everything I've built
just to throw it away
In the end we begin
as we've always been
All alone
All one
In this sea of hate

Throw your shit away
You are not a slave
Go out in the day
You are not a slave
Track Name: Hopeless
There is no hope for you and me
I can see it in your eyes
We keep fighting for our rights
As they claw their way inside
You want all of this to be
forever and a day
but these three beasts in front of me
keep getting in the way

Now I see
That this must be
I see

These things you stress about
are minuscule and trivial
Someday you will find out
your words are dull and cynical

There is no way of turning back
This is the way it all must be
Help me to find my way to you
Help me to find my way through

Now I see
That this must be
I see that

These things you stress about
are minuscule and trivial
Someday you will find out
your words are dull and cynical

There's No Hope
For You
There's No Hope
For Me
There's No Hope
For Us
Track Name: Did What You Had To
I'm so glad
You did what you had to
But I don't have to like
the way you dropped me
just like that
I admit
I didn't do so well myself
I had to find out
by reading your book
and finding mine crossed out

What am I doing here?
Why am I still here?

I'm so glad
You do what you want to
But I don't have to like
the way you drop me
oh so fast
I admit
I didn't do so well myself
I'm at this gate
there is no way in
as far as I can tell

What am I doing here?
Why am I still here?
Track Name: Lust and Jealousy
Breaking through the shadows
and falling too late
it seems you're gone
And the distance is a wall
like that of a public restroom
I can hear you on the other side
and as I press my ear to listen
I feel dirty

Back to back we break a smile
but we cannot see each other's face
Mine slowly turns into a burning smirk
as the fists pound away my feelings

There is nothing left of me
except this lust and jealousy
I have nothing left for you
So there's just one thing left to lose

Everything around us tends to change
while we ourselves remain the same
Because we failed to listen now
we're doomed to itch until we bleed

Deep inside I feel sharpened pains
shooting out of my ribcage
until the implosion, fast and sweet
it will make my heart stop beating

There is nothing left of me
except this lust and jealousy
I have nothing left for you
So there's just one thing left to lose

We're fading away

There is only one last thing to lose
Track Name: Do Nothing
We can see you going to pieces
Breaking apart just as soon as I get near
Adding up all your bad decisions
Multiplied by the times I've tossed you aside

Lets just do nothing
it's the only way that we'll get paid

Your temperature is rising
and it's all my fault
You're making everyone afraid
and it's all my fault

We can see your face is melting
Just goes to show how much that we truly care
If we're in it for the good and the bad times
Do we even need to try and swim?

Fill your body with every pollution
So embalming is the final solution

Your temperature is rising
and it's all my fault
You're making everyone afraid
and it's all my fault
Track Name: Then What
If not for love, nor sex, nor drugs,
then what do you want with me?

What did I do? what did I say?
To make you run away?
What did you think when I didn't speak?
that I'd want to stay?

Where is the pain?
Did I hide it to?
What did I gain,
From talking to you?

Where am I now?
in this sea of psyche; sanity
Am I even somewhat semi healthy?

Where you just picking at the scabs,
of yesterday?
So I can remember them all again
So I cannot heal
I can never heal again

Wavering off the path that leads to you
now I'm out of the loop
Inside a void feeling confused
What do I do?

Where is the pain?
Did I hide it to?
What did I gain,
From talking to you?

Where am I now?
in this sea of psyche; sanity
Am I even semi healthy?

Was I just picking at the scabs,
that yesterday?
I don't remember,
so please remind me
So I can heal
So that I can heal again

If not for love, nor sex, nor drugs,
then what do you want with me?
Track Name: Two Weeks Notice
Here I am again
wondering if I've always been
alone in this emptiness
I've got to face the facts
that you're never coming back

This is my confession to a savior
who never was there
This is my conviction to a girl
who never did care
I am resurrected
from my self destructed state
Only to continue down this path
with you in mind to fuel my hate

Here I am no more
I was a toy for you
to use, then bend
and tear and break
Here's my resignation
won't you please?
Take these last two weeks
then I'll leave

This is my confession to a savior
who never was there
This is my conviction to a girl
who never did care
I am resurrected
from my self destructed state
Only to continue down this path
with you in mind to fuel my hate

We don't need you

Who the fuck do you think you are?
and what do you want from me?
Could it be more fucking money?
You bitch and whine about everything I do
But you never thought that it could be you
So, you want to fire me?
You can't fire me
Cause I quit
Track Name: Abomination
So many leaches and ticks
are sucking at the tits
of our fatass mother
there's a limit that
those jugs got in 'em
pray that you never see the day
when they take your rights away
just to battle the disease
of procreating
and on that very day
the answer will be gay
and you'll be forced
to marry your fellow man

We'll see how you like it then
we'll see how well you'll defend
when the love that you have for someone
has become an abomination

Abomination x4

It's your rights
It's your rights
They want to take your rights
they want to control and ban
everything in this world
they cannot understand

The world is running out of air
so don't you fucking care?
take one for the team
and quit breeding
with chocolate rations down
pray these aren't the days
when they will take
your rights away
and on that very day
the answer they will say
and you'll be forced
to marry a bear

We'll see how you like it then
we'll see how well you'll defend
when the love that you have for someone
has become an abomination

Abomination x4

It's your rights
It's your rights
They want to take your rights
they want to control and ban
everything in this world
they cannot understand
Track Name: Emerald City
We all are broken here
in this Emerald City
Track Name: Collapsing In
Can't you feel it?
Feel the world collapsing in
Feel the emptiness within
as you melt into her skin
Can't you smell it?
the smell of every living thing
it wraps around
and it pulls you down
before you know what's happening

Give in now
There is nothing left to do
Feel it controlling you
Give in now
Just drink the milk
and it'll all be over

soon

God and Satan took their vows
curtains open
and the actors take a bow
You were there to
cause you were me
and I was you

Do not insist (on) my endangering
How the hoaxer tames itself
(i've) Done It Countless Always
When (the) kindlies come
understanding finds that nothing
only demonstrates
(i've) Done It Countless Always

Give in now
There is nothing left to do
Feel it controlling you
Give in now
Just drink the milk
and it'll all be over

soon

God and Satan took their vows
curtains open
and the actors take a bow
You were there to
cause you were me
and I was you

But that's not the way it went
I remember it somewhat different
Like there's something here
just itching to be solved
But you've got to learn
before this thing's resolved
And to gain knowledge
you've gotta learn to lose it all
then let your ego fall

Can't you taste them?
Taste the edges of humanity
They know exactly what you need
So they'll cut you till you bleed
Can't you hear them?
Hear your loved ones calling you
You've gotta hold your breath to win
Or you've gotta do this all again

Give in now
There is nothing left to do
Feel it controlling you
Give in now
Just drink the milk
and it'll all start over