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The Ordeal

by Mixed Messages

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1.
Chivalry 03:02
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One cut is all you need Watch it bend and tear to drain away this disease Control is everything You make it bend and tear until you can feel anything You think that Chivalry is dead but you will see that this pain is all you'll ever feel so put your hand out into the fire You were the one who summoned all of your demons each with their own agendas Now you must sleep with all of them You made your bed Now you must sleep in it Just concentrate on the colors as you fade away
2.
Into the Middle of Things 02:18
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Break away from everything that holds you back Cause all your plans never turn out the way you want So come with me see what it's like when you are free Nothing but you and your memories This is the easiest decision that I've ever made Take everything I've built just to throw it away In the end we begin as we've always been All alone All one In this sea of hate Throw your shit away You are not a slave Go out in the day You are not a slave
3.
Hopeless 03:29
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There is no hope for you and me I can see it in your eyes We keep fighting for our rights As they claw their way inside You want all of this to be forever and a day but these three beasts in front of me keep getting in the way Now I see That this must be I see These things you stress about are minuscule and trivial Someday you will find out your words are dull and cynical There is no way of turning back This is the way it all must be Help me to find my way to you Help me to find my way through Now I see That this must be I see that These things you stress about are minuscule and trivial Someday you will find out your words are dull and cynical There's No Hope For You There's No Hope For Me There's No Hope For Us
4.
Did What You Had To 03:14
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I'm so glad You did what you had to But I don't have to like the way you dropped me just like that I admit I didn't do so well myself I had to find out by reading your book and finding mine crossed out What am I doing here? Why am I still here? I'm so glad You do what you want to But I don't have to like the way you drop me oh so fast I admit I didn't do so well myself I'm at this gate there is no way in as far as I can tell What am I doing here? Why am I still here?
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Lust and Jealousy 04:10
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Breaking through the shadows and falling too late it seems you're gone And the distance is a wall like that of a public restroom I can hear you on the other side and as I press my ear to listen I feel dirty Back to back we break a smile but we cannot see each other's face Mine slowly turns into a burning smirk as the fists pound away my feelings There is nothing left of me except this lust and jealousy I have nothing left for you So there's just one thing left to lose Everything around us tends to change while we ourselves remain the same Because we failed to listen now we're doomed to itch until we bleed Deep inside I feel sharpened pains shooting out of my ribcage until the implosion, fast and sweet it will make my heart stop beating There is nothing left of me except this lust and jealousy I have nothing left for you So there's just one thing left to lose We're fading away There is only one last thing to lose
6.
Suffer 04:12
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Do Nothing 03:15
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We can see you going to pieces Breaking apart just as soon as I get near Adding up all your bad decisions Multiplied by the times I've tossed you aside Lets just do nothing it's the only way that we'll get paid Your temperature is rising and it's all my fault You're making everyone afraid and it's all my fault We can see your face is melting Just goes to show how much that we truly care If we're in it for the good and the bad times Do we even need to try and swim? Fill your body with every pollution So embalming is the final solution Your temperature is rising and it's all my fault You're making everyone afraid and it's all my fault
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Then What 03:27
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If not for love, nor sex, nor drugs, then what do you want with me? What did I do? what did I say? To make you run away? What did you think when I didn't speak? that I'd want to stay? Where is the pain? Did I hide it to? What did I gain, From talking to you? Where am I now? in this sea of psyche; sanity Am I even somewhat semi healthy? Where you just picking at the scabs, of yesterday? So I can remember them all again So I cannot heal I can never heal again Wavering off the path that leads to you now I'm out of the loop Inside a void feeling confused What do I do? Where is the pain? Did I hide it to? What did I gain, From talking to you? Where am I now? in this sea of psyche; sanity Am I even semi healthy? Was I just picking at the scabs, that yesterday? I don't remember, so please remind me So I can heal So that I can heal again If not for love, nor sex, nor drugs, then what do you want with me?
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Two Weeks Notice 03:30
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Here I am again wondering if I've always been alone in this emptiness I've got to face the facts that you're never coming back This is my confession to a savior who never was there This is my conviction to a girl who never did care I am resurrected from my self destructed state Only to continue down this path with you in mind to fuel my hate Here I am no more I was a toy for you to use, then bend and tear and break Here's my resignation won't you please? Take these last two weeks then I'll leave This is my confession to a savior who never was there This is my conviction to a girl who never did care I am resurrected from my self destructed state Only to continue down this path with you in mind to fuel my hate We don't need you Who the fuck do you think you are? and what do you want from me? Could it be more fucking money? You bitch and whine about everything I do But you never thought that it could be you So, you want to fire me? You can't fire me Cause I quit
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Abomination 03:44
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So many leaches and ticks are sucking at the tits of our fatass mother there's a limit that those jugs got in 'em pray that you never see the day when they take your rights away just to battle the disease of procreating and on that very day the answer will be gay and you'll be forced to marry your fellow man We'll see how you like it then we'll see how well you'll defend when the love that you have for someone has become an abomination Abomination x4 It's your rights It's your rights They want to take your rights they want to control and ban everything in this world they cannot understand The world is running out of air so don't you fucking care? take one for the team and quit breeding with chocolate rations down pray these aren't the days when they will take your rights away and on that very day the answer they will say and you'll be forced to marry a bear We'll see how you like it then we'll see how well you'll defend when the love that you have for someone has become an abomination Abomination x4 It's your rights It's your rights They want to take your rights they want to control and ban everything in this world they cannot understand
11.
Emerald City 04:59
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We all are broken here in this Emerald City
12.
Collapsing In 04:39
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Can't you feel it? Feel the world collapsing in Feel the emptiness within as you melt into her skin Can't you smell it? the smell of every living thing it wraps around and it pulls you down before you know what's happening Give in now There is nothing left to do Feel it controlling you Give in now Just drink the milk and it'll all be over soon God and Satan took their vows curtains open and the actors take a bow You were there to cause you were me and I was you Do not insist (on) my endangering How the hoaxer tames itself (i've) Done It Countless Always When (the) kindlies come understanding finds that nothing only demonstrates (i've) Done It Countless Always Give in now There is nothing left to do Feel it controlling you Give in now Just drink the milk and it'll all be over soon God and Satan took their vows curtains open and the actors take a bow You were there to cause you were me and I was you But that's not the way it went I remember it somewhat different Like there's something here just itching to be solved But you've got to learn before this thing's resolved And to gain knowledge you've gotta learn to lose it all then let your ego fall Can't you taste them? Taste the edges of humanity They know exactly what you need So they'll cut you till you bleed Can't you hear them? Hear your loved ones calling you You've gotta hold your breath to win Or you've gotta do this all again Give in now There is nothing left to do Feel it controlling you Give in now Just drink the milk and it'll all start over

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released May 1, 2013

Recorded and Mixed by MM. Vox & Programming: Wesley Rogers, Guitars & 2nd Vox: Nick Frank, More Guitars: Dim Rott, Bass: Sharon Collier, Keys: Nick McCoy, Additional Percussion: Nick Plantz. Mastering by Jamie King. Additional Programming on Track 10 (Abomination) by Aleph Dobbs. Track 6 (Suffer) written and originally performed by Paul Barker and John Elliot of Dessau. Used and recorded with explicit written permission from Dessau. Special Thanks to Becky Plant, Miles Jones, Christine Collier, Christopher Rogers, Daniel Vogt, Erika Martinez, Teresa Collier, Dawn Wood, Chad Jessup, Julia Egli, Bob Paqette, Jeremy Quintos, Wendi Benson, Amy Greenwood, Lola Vast, Mary McDowell, Rachel Dollarhide, Christina Sears, Zachary Klinefelter, Andres Torres, Tammy Wheat, Tom Steffens, Bob McHenry, Alexander and Seage Harris, Luke Green, Sara Hawk, Shane Siegfried, Jesse Lindsay, Peter Thadeus, Dessau, Alice Roberts, and all the broken people of this Emerald City.

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Mixed Messages Seattle, Washington

Vocals: Wesley Rogers
Lead Guitar: Nick Frank
Bass Guitar: Charon Collier
Guitar: Dimurea Rotwang
Synth/Keys: Nik mX
Drums: Galen Waling

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